Tuesday, November 4, 2008 Y 4:08 AM
i swear i wont cry, even as tears fill my eyes. My heart hurts real bad. Much as i would like to forgive you. I really dont knw why. The reason that holding me back because i dun wish to be hurt anymore. Im really very upset. the pain is excruciating. do you really care for me? Do you really love me?Do you really care for this relationship. If you care for me, why in the first place you wanna hurt me?
I have never feel so badly hurt. Usually after a while, i tend to get things over vry fast. but now, my heart still feel so heavy and painful. I really dun knw wad to do anymore. I so stupid to cry for you time and time again. I wish i could be stronger. Eveerytime i blog it shows how unhappy i am. Im so sad and unhappy. Tell me what can i do. I really dun knw hw already. CAn some one teach me what to do. IM REALLY VRY UNH APPY!IM FEELING SO FUCKED UP!!! I jus dun wan to be hurt anymore. I dun wish to be unhappy anymore. am i really so lousy? and inferior. I begining tO lOse faith in our relationship.
MICHELLE NG.