my heart hurts so badly. I always got alot of tears. But this time round, it hurts so bad my tears has already dry out. Because the pain is too excruciating for me to take. When grand father pass away i too, have no tears.If i dun cry means it is too hurtful for me. The pain is undescricable. I know to you, you feel nothing at all. You feel like nothing's wrong. But do you know it hurts me real bad. I feel lost. I walk on the streets helplessly for 2 hours thinking of what should i do. I kept walking but i cant find the answer then i decided to go home.


A: YOu never go cambodia?
B:NO, next week.
A:CAn tahan not to see her?
B:(looking at me in a stunned way) my gf is here, so im already seeing her.
A; no reply


then me what does this means. you tell me you are talking abt me.Do you expect me to be a fool and believes you. how i wish i am a fool den i would believe you. but i believe based on my analyst, you are lying. Then why doesnt his friend reply anymore. Im tired. I have given u more than one chance. Tell me what should i do, i love you but i dun wan to leave you. I dun believe you, i cannot continue to be with you. COs its gonna hurt me for the rest of the days i will be with you. Maybe yesterday is the last anniversary we have together. The fact is I dun wan to leave you. But tell me what should i do. You wont be able to make up for my hurt. Only time can.

what can i do, everytime u are faced with a problem, i never seem to be of any help to you at all. I feel so useless. Why cant solve any of ur problems. Actually by right i should be angry with you. Cos evrytime you are in a bad mood u vent it on me.But its okay. I will put up with all this. And is all because i love you. Do you know im willing to do anything for you? And if it withnin my means i'll give you all i can.i feel so upset. I jus wan you to be happy.

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baby do you know that im always vry scared to lose you yet i wanna leave you at times. I wonder why am i always caught in such a dilema. I dun wan to lose you cos i need you in my life. Yet, all the obstacles and barriers we faced, make me think that im not fit to be your girlfriend. I know that i have no good strengths to begin with, only all the weaknesses i have. But you endure with it all the time. accepted my weakness with an open heart. all the wrong doings i have done, you gave in all the time. PLease continue to endure me. I promised not to do anything wrong anymore. I ever told you, without you in my life i dun know how to move on. I mean it, maybe it will take months for me to stand up of my feet with out you or never. Because you possess of a very important significance and value in my heart. Being with you i have the happiest moment of my life, because you are the only one who can bring laughters to my face, Being with you, i had the saddest moments, because you are the only one who can hurt me so bad, is because you are very important to me thats why you have the ability to affect me, and make my heart aches. whether is tears, laughter, happiness, or anger that you bring me, its because you are the only one who can affect me.

im going away for a few days. Im going genting, but why dun i feel the least excited. I am not happy abt it. a feeling of emptiness fills my heart. maybe because his friends are going but i dun even know his friend. going with a bunch of strangers is wierd. haiz jus hope that i will not be neglected there. Hope can enjoy there PS: sorry mum cant be there for the gathering.=(

After 1 and a half weeks of enjoyment, im going back to work again tmr. well, i gave it some thought. I think i have to move on. I have to go back to school and get a cert. I have to find a job that's different from this. I got to do something i really enjoy. I got to find back the passion for it again. Im exhausted perhaps. ANyway i've decided to put braces. i've made an appointment next tuesday at 2 pm. the main reason why i wanna put braces is you. I want to be ur pretty girl. Im sick of pple calling me bugs bunny ok. Its meant to be a joke or an amusement but i cant accept this type of Joke all my life. Besides, i really wan to be confident of my life, My biggest barrier of my confidence is my protruding teeth. so thats a big problem. so i have to move on. Anyway i have been thinking abt our relationship, i really want to find back my happiness. I dun wanna get hurt or always cry my heart out. Its miserable to love like that isnt it?

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